SID's birthday

when was the last time I updated my blog?
don't know...
well, actually I'm not a person who always updating my blog...
since it's pretty hard to browse this blog from mobile phone...
I can't always use my computer all the time..

and so, yesterday (14/1) was the 8th birthday of SID

keep up the good works, and produce more beautiful yet inspiring songs guys...
I'll keep support you from the bottom of my heart...
can't wait for their new album called "Dead Stock"
it will be released on 23rd of feb...
must be a wonderful album this time too..

etoo~
for this couple of days lately, somehow I felt quite lonely...
I don't know why for sure..
but i guess there's time when you feel like everything is just not right, right?
like, what you did was wrong..
like you've been misplaced..
though I smiled on the outside, but my heart tightened and it felt like I could burst into tears anytime soon..
nobody I could talk to..
not even my bestfriends..
it's not that I don't trust them..
it's just simply I don't know the reasons for feeling this way..
well, it's not about someone that I hardly forget, right?
though I've changed into someone stronger than before, forgetting someone who had you completely was the hardest thing to do...
thinking of what you've done with him...
somehow it's upsetting and regretting..
though it's too late to regret everything that had happened..

this time around, I feel like flat...
nothing I could feel..
I feel like the feelings I used to have, sad, happy, worry, and else are gone...
it's true that if you loved someone to much, you'd turn to be like a lost cat in a deserted island..
nowhere to go, know nothing...
and right now, I'm the lost cat..
trying hard to find the right directions to go home...

all I could do this time is just crying silently at night until I sleep..
I feel relieve only after that...
in the morning, that tightening feeling comes back..
and I have to deal with it all day...
talked to my friends and had a joke somehow made me forget those feeling..
that's why lately I hate to be left alone..
I need something to avert my thought from that feeling..
though I know, I need to find the answer for this uncomfortable feeling..
but I hate how it feels...
so I just tried to forget it..

well, it's just a brief of my feeling written here..
I'll write anytime soon..
though this is only my private journal...
since I don't have any followers XD
so I think I could be free to express any feelings I had here..

See ya!~> to myself XD